i just realized i left almost an entire pizza in the back of my car
it’s okay though it’s winter outside is colder than my fridge anyways
a guy who is flirting with me (or trying to at least) just said for a writer i’m really shit at texting
texting is not a valid form of communication for me. i enjoy PHONE CALLS. ACTUALLY TALKING. you see my issue?¿
plus I was in a fucking car hanging out with someone, I don’t answer my phone in the middle of dRIVING. and what does being a writer have to do with that? i like to make speeches and worlds not talk about myself, god I hate talking about myself.
I’ve read many books but I still can’t figure out what makes a reader so attached to a relationship in a book that they remember it forever.
Why is your favorite book and couple your favorite book and couple? What makes you remember them so vividly?
I’m better at writing a detailed sims 3 life description than I am a relationship. Faaack.
he makes me laugh so much with his silly thoughts, so much so I forget why I ever frowned a day in my life. it’s so real and raw to hear his fears about life and specifically the future I can’t help but think about mine and how we’re so alike in a vast amount of ways. yes I like him but it’s so much more than that; he tells me everything, things that seemingly don’t matter and goes over his thoughts with me and continually makes me laugh because he wants to see me smile. it’s the most sincere, amazing friendship I’ve ever had before.
I don’t know why but banks make me hella nervous. Honestly they stress me out, especially having to walk into one and talk about my accounts, money, etc. with someone. I was able to go, but not without a friend by my side. It made me feel so much better just to not go into a bank alone. A massive weight has been lifted for me now though because I got temp checks and I used one just now to pay my credit card bill online. Also they told me my account is in great standing along with my credit. I don’t like seeing money transferred out of my account but I’ve been worrying about that bill for 3 weeks because I had to wait for the card in the mail and then I had to find time and courage to go into a bank. The worst is over! No more anxiety, just sighs of relief. :)
I hate leaving things unpaid automatically it’s nerve wrecking as fuck. That’s why I pay everything off automatically but without checks I couldn’t and that’s what fucked with me. Finally finally over.
life is weird man but at least nicotine makes me happy
why is everyone trying to tell me what to do?
life is mine to live and love yet hate at the same time and decisions are all mine to make. don’t have input on a person you don’t understand, will never understand more than i do. realize in even small ways i do know who i am and what my body needs now and that is time. i have all my life to learn and go to college but traveling and my enjoying the company of my grandparents and meeting my cousin and his wife for the first time when they have their first baby together in may only happens once. i WILL go to college and please do not doubt that but the time i need away first and foremost is necessary for my well being.
friday the 13th
hello my dear friend
time to wear black
I’m really excited for today because I’m going to be doing all the things I’ve been trying to do for a week or two now.
Finally cleaning my room, doing returns, finding more things to get rid of & donating those things, redoing the posters on my wall and going to the bank to talk to someone about my accounts. Oh and calling my grandma specifically. I’m about to because I miss her a lot.
I’ve been up since 6 PM yesterday though haha where is this energy coming from?¿ And I’ve already worked 10 PM to 7:15 AM because I was processing and running back merchandise.